My Dreamz World

2009-11-18T22:17:00.001-08:00

this blog not going to use n update..
having a new one now...
if want juz take from me ^^

2009-11-03T22:36:00.000-08:00

Finally it past one month already
and i just used one month to recover it
the feel between both of us already become tawar
i think there is no more love
just a feel of ''bu she de''
those memory will become the past
and will still keep it my heart
as a sweet memories for both of us

THE END here...

2009-10-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

i failed my history n chemistry
zzz.. because of i din study = =

at the end he also choose to leave me
n choose to love that tomboy

2009-10-26T06:58:00.000-07:00

beekie, you finally know how is the person he is

just now he still trying to lie you

so now you should not give any hope on him anymore

he just think you are his spare tyre

don be stupid waiting for him

worthless!

you can live without him

Show It!

i will start my new life!

n will try something new!

expecially you!

2009-10-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

I past my add math^^

hahax

unbelieveable

Damn boring in school today

p/s:cant control my mind

2009-10-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

Tired!

he hurt me deeply

i must live better than him

i will let him know

he love that tomboy is a wrong decision

i will let him regret

i will not accept him again

if he wants me back!

beekie, you must prove it!

2009-10-24T07:01:00.000-07:00

SHIT!

ONG CHON WEI

you lied me 4 months ago!

im reali reali stupid!

in that 4 months you r still love that tomboy!

you lied me!

u break ur promised!

you think im ur spare tyre

Arrgh!

why i so stupid??

i swear

i will never ever forgive you!

i will throw all the rubbish u gift me!

i will never trust you!

p/s: thx xxx for telling me the truth!

2009-10-24T01:24:00.000-07:00

My LOVELY room

love it so much ! muackx :)

p/s: still gt many foto din upload..

lazy :( bluek

2009-10-23T03:38:00.000-07:00

The list that you treat me how bad it was:

1.) police: he said you always fon him n sms him to disturb him

n always went to his house

miki: what??

(the police told me)

2.) miki: what you told eng?

cw: you already knew

miki: yup, you say you dont wan to care about me anymore

then why you still wan give me hope on saturday?

cw: yarhx larhx.. after form5 only talk about that

miki: then why i sms you, you don wan to reply me?

cw: why i must reply you

miki: just now i write letter for you

then let my mum discover you know?

she scold me n bite my hand.

cw: did i call you to write letter for me?

miki: you had took all my eveerything you know?

cw: then you wan me how?

3.) cw: hello...

miki: hello, cw arrhx?

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(once you heard my sound, you closed the call)

[then you parent come to find me n wants to report me]

4.) ean help me ask you that did you still love me?

cw: ask her dad

miki: you da suan to give up me liao izit?

cw: Niama, she wat lan jiao oso din say in the balai..

her dad scold her i still got fuk him back

5.) yw sms you that told you i let me dad beat also

cw: so?

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cw: call bk dont write about me in her blog..

she dare to call ppl dont reply me

6.) you send for yw

cw: puki bk luan luan say thing.. secret lan

she told you n sm

better call her tell justin that just a lie that just me make me to reply her

if not i will fon her dad..

i dont care.. if 2moro morning i still hear tio that..

i will fon her dad.. thats all

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the word of break is you said it not me

miki: ean, you know wat happen between me n cw?

ean: yarhx.. he told me that both of you alrdy break

n ur dad slap him den sd him to balai

miki: huh? he reali told you both of us break?

ean: yup

miki: oo.. den he still gt tell who?

ean: he told me n wj only

miki: kkays

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yes.. i dont know what my dad told your dad

so i wont say about that

but you also no need treat me so bad gua?

im innocent

i din call my dad to slap u n sd us to balai

n i also never thnk that my dad will do that...

you thnk i wan dis kind of thing happen?

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pls.. thnk bout it.. if you r me..

den i treat you like the way you treat me

you will how?

unless you bo love me

if not ur feeling will same like me

thats what i wana tell you

if im you.. n im still love you

i will not use that way to treat me

even ur dad slap me n sd me to balai

becoz i love you

i will wants to protect you

but now.. ppl ask me

xx: beekie, would you still wan to continue wif cw now?

beekie: i dont know

xx: y dont noe?

beekie: i just know he hurt me n make me damn suffer

futhermore he also bo love me liao la..

he jor go sms that tomboy already..

where will still rmb me?

( thats what i know)

p/s: having a new hair style today :)

2009-10-21T23:51:00.000-07:00

= = wth!

i did wrong in my bio test...

this tym dont know need fail how many subjects

zzz.. all also because my stupid brain

dont know think about wat in the exam

hehex.. dis sat gonna hang out with frenz!

actuali wana go to sg dis sat

but my bro cancel the trip T_T

coz he need to work on dis sat.

2009-10-20T23:26:00.000-07:00

ONG CHON WEI

its enough!

i already choose to give up liao

what you want actually?

can u pls dont everything also scold me

and vulgar me?

why i need to suffer for all that

i love you for what?

at the end also i sendiri suffer at there

i will never forgive you!

i hate you more than others

i really really hate you!

2009-10-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

HELP!!!

i really gonna crazy!

i no mood to study = =

my sejarah and add math gonna die soon

TIRED

lazy to study

i cant control my mind

T_T

i really dont know what my mind think about

the hurt he made on me will doesnt recover

i wont trust HIM anymore

beekie, you must be stronger than HIM

he is a bad guy, pls dont soft heart!

2009-10-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

DAMN IT!

what you had told yw

i had knew!

i didn't call ppl dnt reply you!

who that ppl?

CHIA NI?

Narhx! i alrdy din contact her for long long ago!

who wants to contact her?

futhermore my hp tio rampas how contact her?

from now on

i dnt wanna know anything about you!

i dnt wanna care about you!

even future your new gf is CHIA NI or who else

oso non of my buisness!

i will find the guy that better than you!

CLEVER than you

HANDSOME than you

RICH than you

you make me HATE you!

you told ur friend that both of us alrdy break

I still stupid at there

dnt know you wan to break with me

Okays... BREAK larhx

so what?

''BREAK'' the word is you said it

not me

pls dnt everything oso blame on me!

you hate ppl fitnah you

me too!

one more thing

3 october 2009 eh thing not my fault!

dnt everything oso blame on me!

what you told the police i also know!

if you beh syok or what

go find my dad

dont come to find me!

is you dont wan me

not me dont want you!

i wont give any hope on you anymore

i will give up!

i will live BETTER than YOU!

i will live HAPPIER than YOU!

ONG CHON WEI

i will remember how bad you treat me

GET AWAY from me

I HATE YOU

p/s: sick.. 2moro dnt knw how to exam T_T

2009-10-15T23:17:00.000-07:00

Sorry

i know you now very angry me

i admit tat in police station there i din help you say anything in front of my dad

but u also know i very scare my dad

u know i not dare to shoot back my dad in fron of him

i only dare to shoot him bek behind of him

i already tell u tat long ago de mia

y u still dont understand me?

i reali gt care about you

after bek from police station

i also got tio slap n beat by my dad

i nt dare to tell anyone because i feel shame

i gt say i still want together wif you

but he dnt let

he ask me you gt wat gud

i said you treat me very gud very sayang me

but oso same wat

he dnt let jor dnt let

my dad still say he dnt wan me this daughter if i continue like that

he want to throw me out

den wat can i say n do?

if my dad throw me out u still wan me meh?

except explain to you

call u forgive me

i cant do anything

you wan me let u slap?

or u wan me giv up my family?

or u wan me go inside the pusat pemulihan?

i reali hope u can understand my condition

n hope u can forgive me

i still love you so much

reali

u gift me eh thg i nvr throw

i still keep it well

that our promised!

i believe ong chon wei wont like that treat lim bee kie eh

except you reali dnt love me anymore

n u say u will responsible to me eh

i reali believe what you say

pls dnt let me dissapointed

pls i beg you!

2009-10-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

im still doing the same thing all the days

i really cant even let go of him

im struggling with those question

did he still love me?

i keep findind excuse for him

giving hope on him

did he still remember our promised?

did i still love him or bu she de?

i everyday told myself

no. he still love me

but he already delete my photo n our photo

nothing left on his phone

why? why he wants to delete?

he really give me up d?

i keep think of our memory

that time im really the most happyness girl in the world

what he told me im still remember now

we so difficult baru together back

why now jor need break

i already pay many efford on that

i try my best to be his good gf

after cl thing i really got change

im love him more than last time

i know i always keep say about chia ni thing make him angry

becuase of i jealous. i mind. i dont like

in my heart he wont do those thing to make me sad n cry

but i know he also mind about me n cl

i realy regret what have i done

after me n cl then he n chia ni

our love jor started to change

he didnt like last time so love me already

but i love him more than last time

but its too late

he had make me love him more than last time

why now he wan to give me up?

he love other girl already izit?

or he feel suffer to be with me?

what his problem actually?

why he dont wan explain to me?

he know what i wan. what i need.

but why he dont wan peduli me at all

i become a stranger in his life

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Sorry my beloved,

CW!!!

after i read back the letter u write for me

i had discover i didnt zhen xi the love you give me

i had hurt u deeply

i keep hurt n hurt u

im reali stupid

now you bo love me le

i baru will zhen xi n regret

its too late

i hate myself

i hate what i have done

if the time can reverse

i will choose you

i wont choose cl

really!

i love you!

you feel suffer when be with me

you hate me

you angry me

you dont wan be with me anymore

you dont love me anymore

sorry!

all is my fault!

i dont know how to appreciate the chance that you give me

now you give me up already

im really regret!

i hate myself!

i will continue to hurt myself

to reduce your hurt in ur heart

but i think cant

all can i do only that

now both of our parent jor not allow v pat toh already

n you oso bo love me already

i din have the chance to bu chang you

n be ur good gf already

i juz can hurt myself to reduce the hurt.

this what can i do!

actuali juz now wana hurt myself already

but i din

i remember what i promised you

i said i wont hurt myself again

i wont go suicide if v break

i wont go find other guys

i will guai guai

n a lots

i reali still remember what i promised you

did you???

Do you still love me?

will wait for me until v form 5?

in the letter

you say u wan me to b hapi all the times

i hapi u jor hapi

but now i suffer i sad

because i lost you

in the letter you also said

you will never ever leave me alone

but now you leave me

i cry alone at there

nobody comfort me

last tym when i cry you call me not to cry

n say ''i love you'' to me

but now din have le

you r nt mine!

2009-10-13T02:28:00.000-07:00

THE END

between BK n CW

its the times for both of us having a break

althought it make me damn suffer

i really tired

i need take a long long rest

all i need is time

from the day what he had told me

i know he didnt love me already

if not he wont choose the worst way to treat me

the hurt he made deep n deeper

i already cried for him many days

its enough!

i suffer i cry he dont know at all

he just will say i didnt care about him

only will just care about my dad

but he never stand on my side n think

i really dissapointed

why the guy that i love the most will become like that

i know what he angry for

what he beh syok for.

but what can i do

im just a girl

just a daughter of my dad

i didnt have the right to change my dad's mind

i already try my best to protect him

but he cant feel it at all

then how about him??

he didnt protect me at all

or mayb got i dont know

now i really dont know what his mind think of

he can act as nothing happened at all

last saturday i move to new house there

then i tidy my room

i saw the thg he gift me n the letter he write for me

n the photo that we take together

reali make me sad

i suddenly recall back what he told me before

he said if one of the day both of us break

dont throw the letter because he use his real heart to write

its hurt for me now

our memory will become past tense

the ring he gift me is meaningless

so i already keep all those thg in a box

and seal it

except that i reali dont know what can i do

everyday just will make me think of him

i hate to think

will make me suffer or even cry

2009-07-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

I hate myself

i dont know how make the relation back to normal

i really very tired on that

all of my friend also call me to break

but i cant do it

very hard

i cant afford to lost him

i just want the relation back to normal

i just want he treat me like time

and love me like last time

if can i really hope the time can reverse

i hope me n that guy are nothing

when i wanna make the decision to break

i jor will automatically recall those sweet memories about me n him

i really love him

why he had make mt to change

then he also change himself

he had control me

i lost my way to continue my daily life

all of my brain only got him

i really hope i can just leave the world easily

why so many people dead easily with those diseases

why the people who really need to die not me???

2009-07-16T06:35:00.000-07:00

i extremly hate today!

What i had done?

why every people also like to fitnah me

Shit! i didnt did it!

i will remember how you all treat me today!

MOODLESS!

2009-07-10T19:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

i had slapped 1 person!

WoOw! its amazing

after slapping him my heart feel better alots!

and cw also the same!

i hope when we meet or whatever

just act as dont know each other

that's the best way!

p/s:sori kee fang! coz yts something happen den din on9

2009-07-08T23:41:00.000-07:00

Finally

those make me sad's stuff

had OVER!

i really hope that kind of thing

wont happen on me again

its can make people lost the way!

i need thanks my dear friends!

especially shim yi and kee fang

both of them help me a lots

2009-07-02T01:02:00.001-07:00

All i want is you!

only you!

i can sacrifice everything

if that can make you back to my side!

even the god want me to die now

i also willing!

i really cant accept your heart inside got other girl!

really cant!

you had make me love you deeply

but now you want to leave me alone!

i really hope you can back to my side!

without you i cant live normally

i really cant afford to lost you!

you are important than everything

many people called me to give up

but i didnt

because i believe what you promised to me

i really hope you wont make me disspointed anymore!

2009-07-01T00:50:00.001-07:00

yesterday

you had told me you choose her!

i really hurt when u told me that

i had do a lot of thing to rescue back our relation

but its useless

the problem is on you!

you dont want to change!

is u cant control yourself to sms her

you didnt keep your promised!

not my fault!

i had tried my best!

but still failed

i really saw the message from her

but u still tired to lie me

i hate that feeling!

that moment i really wanna give up

but i still didnt

becuase i love you

i willing to get hurt also dont want to break up

that whats i can do now

but the right is on you!

you control all the thing

except that i cant do anything!

thanks

soo ming, yee wean, wei thing, phaik feng

shim yi, kee fang, n lots of my friends!

you all had helped me a lots!

if we break up

i will be single for now

because i had promised my mum

that after today i will not think about love anymore

i will just study!

2009-06-29T01:21:00.000-07:00

SAD SAD SAD

i am very sad...

i scare to lost him

nowadays we keep quarrel

i dont know what things make us quarrel

is it nowadays u have many homework

and then u cant accompany me so i din have safety?

or my problems?

i really dont know!

i everyday just hope u can change back to yourself

you said i didnt change

but i had tried my best to change!

but its useless...

i dont like the way you treat me nowadays...

its hurt me!

really hurt!

i had find many ways to solve our problems..

but still the same...

i very regret now that make you change

i really hope u can be back yourself

thats my birthday wish!

p/s:thx those who console in school!

2009-06-19T04:52:00.000-07:00

Busy Busy Busy!

i am dont know y i was so busy

but

something i had recovered is

when i was alone

i jor will think to the negatif aspect

so nowadays those thing had made me moodless

its bad!

and after on back wif him

he didnt give me any safety feeling

Therefore, i dont know when i will lost him again!

2009-04-29T02:13:00.000-07:00

Having a new BLOG...
and finally finished edit it...
hahax...
like it so much..
hope you all will like it...
muackx

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today quite moodless while schooling...

because of some private reason..

that thing had make me cant concentrate during the lesson..

i was hoping someone can console at that time..

but luckily...

my friend, xxx

she called me to cheer up..

and said "i will suppot you always"

p/s: thanks my friend,xxx